That Friend

I have friend. He fends for himself.

Basically, you only see him do things that will help him propel forward. He doesn’t socialise much and he weed out a lot of the unnecessary things.

You know he’s busy but you just don’t know what he’s busy with. I suppose, you can call him a tanker.

He loves to do things on his own and not listen to the opinion of others. In Malay, we have a word for that, ‘degil’.

In every good essence of the word, he is very ‘degil’. I guess that comes from his upbringing of always needing to better himself and fend for himself in the outside world. He has learned to be truly independent of those around him and knowing that other people are just ‘nikmat’ or worldly pleasures for him. If he has friends, it’s good, but without, he is also good.

I’ve been pondering about this friend for a while and about his character. He’s slowly making a name for himself in the outside world. I realised that he is truly, in every sense of the word, adulting.

He isolates himself to do work, to get things done for real.

Fun is not essential.

I can learn so much from him. I guess one thing is how he can truly dissociates himself from everyone and just be focused.

For a start, taking a break from social media was one of the ways to teach me to let go. I guess, to a certain extent, it has achieved that but there are still remnants.

I believe I need to seek solitude. To really immerse myself in me and not let myself be defined by others.

Friends will be there.

But they will definitely not be there if you lost your way and fail and this thing called life.

May we strive for the best and may we continue to prosper.


Fearing the Creation

Why do we fear creation such as our bosses and people who are in positions of authority? Do we fear their anger, the power they have over us?

Or do we respect them to the point where not fearing them is a sign of disrespect?

Whatever it is, why don’t we have the same fear for our Creator? The One whom had made us?

Why do we not hold the same level of respect for Him?

I wonder.

Good or Bad, it’s good.

Good or bad, it’s good.

Things happen for a reason, everything happens for a reason.

It is just beyond our capacity to understand why certain things happen.

The wonderful thing about Islam is that it teaches us to look at the good as a blessing and to look at the bad as a test that will ultimately lead to more blessings.

Allah SWT tests those He loves the most.

The Prophets were tested the heaviest, then followed by the sahabas, and then the saints.

But they still remained steadfast. They still seek Allah’s pleasure.

For they know that being tested is a good thing.

For us, we can think of it such as the famous Surah Al-Inshirah:
فَإِنَّ مَعَ الْعُسْرِ يُسْرًا – 94:5

“Verily with hardship, [there will be] ease.”

It states ‘with’ hardship. Not ‘after’ hardship. Ease comes with hardship just like how happiness comes with sadness. So, think about the pain, the tests you’re going through as a pathway to ease.

Mus’ad ibn Sa’eed reported: The Messenger of Allah, peace and blessings be upon him, said:

الْبَلَاءُ بِالْعَبْدِ حَتَّى يَتْرُكَهُ يَمْشِي عَلَى الْأَرْضِ مَا عَلَيْهِ خَطِيئَةٌ

The servant will continue to be tried until he is left walking upon the earth without any sin.

Source: Sunan al-Tirmidhī 2398, Grade: Sahih

So when He tests you, it burns away your sins as you face that trial.

But here’s a caveat. Do not wish for His tests. Even though the tests of this world is better than the tests of the akhirah, don’t ask for it for it questions His judgements.

Anas ibn Malik reported: The Messenger of Allah, peace and blessings be upon him, said:

إِذَا أَرَادَ اللَّهُ بِعَبْدِهِ الْخَيْرَ عَجَّلَ لَهُ الْعُقُوبَةَ فِي الدُّنْيَا وَإِذَا أَرَادَ اللَّهُ بِعَبْدِهِ الشَّرَّ أَمْسَكَ عَنْهُ بِذَنْبِهِ حَتَّى يُوَافِيَ بِهِ يَوْمَ الْقِيَامَةِ

If Allah intends good for his servant, then he hastens the punishment for him in this world. If Allah intends evil for his servant, then he withholds punishment for his sins until he appears on the Day of Resurrection.

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Therefore, look at good things as a blessing and look at the bad as a greater blessing. It might not remove your burden but it might lighten your load. Trust in Him for He does not burden his slave more than he can bear.

A doa from the Al-Quran:

لَا يُكَلِّفُ اللَّهُ نَفْسًا إِلَّا وُسْعَهَا ۚ لَهَا مَا كَسَبَتْ وَعَلَيْهَا مَا اكْتَسَبَتْ ۗ رَبَّنَا لَا تُؤَاخِذْنَا إِن نَّسِينَا أَوْ أَخْطَأْنَا ۚ رَبَّنَا وَلَا تَحْمِلْ عَلَيْنَا إِصْرًا كَمَا حَمَلْتَهُ عَلَى الَّذِينَ مِن قَبْلِنَا ۚ رَبَّنَا وَلَا تُحَمِّلْنَا مَا لَا طَاقَةَ لَنَا بِهِ ۖ وَاعْفُ عَنَّا وَاغْفِرْ لَنَا وَارْحَمْنَا ۚ أَنتَ مَوْلَانَا فَانصُرْنَا عَلَى الْقَوْمِ الْكَافِرِينَ
– 2:286

Allah does not charge a soul except [with that within] its capacity. It will have [the consequence of] what [good] it has gained, and it will bear [the consequence of] what [evil] it has earned. “Our Lord, do not impose blame upon us if we have forgotten or erred. Our Lord, and lay not upon us a burden like that which You laid upon those before us. Our Lord, and burden us not with that which we have no ability to bear. And pardon us; and forgive us; and have mercy upon us. You are our protector, so give us victory over the disbelieving people.”

Have a blessed day ahead. :’)

it changed


As I continue to dive deeper into religion and to learn more about it, the idea or what religion means to me changes. I realised this.

in the past, it was to fit in, to become better, to not be awkward during religious events and to know what in the world is going on. However, over time, I realised that religion, Islam rather, has become something more.

Now, it is something that I look forward to learning, something that I want to share with people and something that I want to know everything about. They say that the best of peoples are those that have the constantly have the remembrance of Allah. The saints have their lips wet with dzikr. I think that is something that I want to strive for, to constantly remember Him and the Prophet SAW.

To constantly learn about the seerah of the Prophet SAW, to constantly learn more about this religion truly open your eyes to the pains of this world and how this world really doesn’t matter. I mean it does but how everything in this world is temporary.

We live in a world where capitalism fuels our hedonistic lifestyle. Islam is a way out of that. By submitting ourselves to Him and ensuring that every decision we make is for His pleasure, it removes us from the burden of our own desires, from the burden of guilt of failure. We realised that everything is already predetermined by Him and what we can do is strive for the best (to our own knowledge).

May we continue to learn more about this beautiful religion and may we continue to be steadfast and strive in the way of Allah SWT.

Let me end with a quote (rephrased obviously because I can remember nuts):
“How does one defeat an enemy that looks forward to death?”

Groundhog Day

To remove ones’ egocentrism to the point where the only thing you care about is making others happy is something thatbis very hard to do.

To be nice to everyone and to make that your primary mode of thought is something that requires years to practice.

When someone is given a repeated day to relive every single day, he is given a choice: to commit crime without any consequences or to do good.

After a while, the character realised that he got bored of that life, of a life trying to get the girl, to force her to fall in love with him through knowing her and not by understanding her. To take advantage of the loop that he’s been given to just get the upper hand.

But he fails to realise that what’s more important is his own character, his own traits and morals that will finally get the girl. She might have fallen for the trap early on but when she realised that it’s all set up, he had no more substance to keep her with him.

But ever since he had sincerely repent, sincerely changed for the better, to overcome his ‘shadow’ so to say, she stayed.

It says so much about what actually keeps a girl and what relationships really mean. It isn’t egocentrism or knowing another person so well but it’s about removing that ego, caring for others, developing oneself and understanding the other that will forge a strong relationship.

Groundhog Day is a good movie, one that highlights the overcoming of the ego and how a hedonistic lifestyle can never sustain a person’s wellbeing. It teaches that one should live in gratitude and compassion to truly live a happy life.


Work has been neglecting in the past few days.

Preoccupied with commitments and fun.

Maybe that’s what I needed, a distraction.

Or maybe I was just procrastinating from the real work at hand.

Can you believe that it’s already Week 6? We’re halfway into the semester.

Means examinations are closer and just a step further, Year 3.

Oh gosh, how I’m going to miss university once I graduate, once all of this ends.

This semester thus far has been one of the most happening for me. I mean… Really though.

Anyway, I shall go back to my Year 1 hustling mode. I must.


It is almost two weeks since my ‘social media’ break.

It has been really good to be disconnected.

One thing that I notice is that I know lesser things about the ongoing lives of my friends and when they tell me about it, I am genuinely surprised. I think there is some benefit in not knowing things. I guess you tend to cherish the connection between people and not the superficial.

I realised also that I am more focused, more focused on the work that I do and completely less distracted with my phone. I no longer expect likes, shares, follows to happen but just let it be.

It is that freedom of not being chained by the expectations of others or by the self-absorbed tendencies of social media that make this break feels good.

Anyway, I’m just thankful for everything that has happened to me thus far. I guess life just gets a little bit more complicated but I’m thankful that I’m still managing it.

Anyway, this week is Chinese New Year and with a lot of classes that are put on hold, I can catch up on my work. Maybe I’ll even come down to school to do some work. Heck.

Yeah, just several things to catch up on. So yeah, I will finish them all, insyaAllah.