Note to my
This is a letter to my future self. It will encompass everything that I had, is and will experience in my entire life. The most important question is this, how do I want to see myself in 60 years time?
I am writing this letter in the year 2016. When the idea of writing a letter to my future self dawned upon me, I felt that it might help me to visualise what I really want in life. I may or may not die before the ripe old age of 80 but by writing this, I want to immortalise the feelings, aspirations and dreams of a 20-year-old young adult.
Firstly, I would like to ask if you’re doing well? How are you? How has life been? Being 20 now, I am really excited and somewhat afraid of what life has in store for me. Who did I get married to? How many children do I have? How am I doing financially? How many loved ones had already passed away? There are many more questions that I want to ask you but just one letter will not be enough. Hakim, whatever it is, I’m sure that everything had turned out well for you. I’m sure that all your hard work had paid off and you’re enjoying your golden age right now. However, throughout the next 60 years that I’ll be expecting, I’m sure there are countless lessons and failures that I made.
I’m sure that all your hard work had paid off and you’re enjoying your golden age right now. However, throughout the next 60 years that I’ll be expecting, I’m sure there are countless lessons and failures that I made. Hakim, what stories can you tell me and what advice can you share with me? What experiences can you share with me and what important lessons can you teach me?
I’m sure you remember when you were me, being at a young age of 20. What should I or should I not do? It will be amazing if you can tell me. What I am really expecting is a life without regrets, a life of happiness and pleasure, a life fulfilled. Did I achieve all of that? Did I achieve my life goals that I set when I was 20?
As I write this letter, I envisioned you (myself) as a successful entrepreneur, with a mind full of lessons and knowledge and a character rich with morals. I envisioned you to have a loving family, one that laughs, plays and loves one another so hard. I envisioned you to have a tight-knitted family who goes on adventures together and never fails to help one another. I envisioned you to achieve your lifelong dreams of exploring the world and be a faithful Muslim. I envisioned you to travel the world and share your knowledge with the less fortunate and the helpless. I envisioned you to be someone other people look up to and respect, someone with a life full of rich experiences. I envisioned you to ultimately be happy, living life without regrets.
Hakim, I know being 80 is not easy, I mean… I’m 20 and I’m already struggling with life but what I’m trying to say is that, when I’m at your age, I just want to be what I envisioned you (myself) to be. I do not want to live a life filled with regrets and indecisions. I want to live a life filled with countless lessons and experiences that I can share with the world. I hope you are like how I dreamed of you to be.
As I write the last paragraph of this letter, I hope that the world you’re living in is a world full of love and peace. A world that is happy and united. A world that has finally matured into an adult. In 2016, I see the progress of spaceships, medicine and many other areas in Science and I cannot fathom of what humankind will accomplish in 2076. Hakim, I just want to know that you are my idol. Your 20-year-old self is a pathetic human being putting mankind to shame but I know that I will become wiser and better in all aspects by the time I’m 80. Hakim, do take care.
Love Your 20-Year-Old Self,
As I was writing that letter, a lot of feelings came welling up inside me. Feelings of fear, sadness, happiness and most importantly, the feeling of knowing that whatever that will happen from now until I’m 80, I will be fine. Goals, decisions, and other petty issues that I’m currently dealing with right now don’t seem to matter that much at all. They seem to be mere hurdles in life but ultimately, I will be fine. I might fail, I might experience a heartbreak, I might experience intense moments of sadness but I know, they are all lessons and mere hurdles of life. Take risks, challenge yourself knowing that whatever that will happen, you will still come back out in one piece.