When I see my results from the tests I have taken, they do not reflect the effort that I had put in.
I feel disappointed, really. It is as though the universe is telling to give up and go home.
Honestly, why am I putting so much effort anyway?
I tried so hard to do better, maybe I haven’t been trying hard enough? Have I been lying to myself all these while?
Or maybe I never had the potential to begin with?
I don’t know. Honestly, it is tiring to chase after something that can never be caught.
However, I just know that deep within, I could do better but it just isn’t happening.
I guess, for now, I need to reevaluate my studying techniques. Maybe it really isn’t just quantity but quality. Possibly, my quality is lacking and thus, I need to brush them up.
Oh, help me please.
I know giving up is never the way and I shouldn’t dwell on my failures.
But it really is painful to see that all those hours have gone to waste.
It starts now.