I am not ready

About 2 more weeks left before Finals and I’m here typing away on my keyboard.

I.

Am.

Not.

Ready.

There is so much I have yet to memorise, there’s so much that I have yet to understand, there’s so much that I do not know but yet I am sitting here typing away…

Don’t get me wrong, I did study, I did revise, I did put in the time and effort to read and understand the topic that I am learning but it seems to all be in vain. I don’t feel as if I had revised. My mind continues to wander…

Now, as I sit here typing away on my keyboard, God knows how much I remember from the materials I’d read just a few hours ago. Maybe a hint here and there but I guess that is all.

I am not ready. I am not ready for the papers that will decide my fate. I am not ready for the pains of examinations and the rigour of hardcore revision. My mind still wants to wander. I wonder…

I wonder if I will ever be ready. Such is my state, complaining and giving excuses…

Oh how. Oh, if only I put in the effort. Maybe more effort is needed? Maybe I just need to hustle a bit more… procrastinate a bit less?

gosh. such. first world problems.

I’m just going to try harder tomorrow, do more work tomorrow, focus on the task at hand tomorrow…

I will succeed.

InsyaAllah.

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