She’s such an innocent gem, not knowing what she’d done and I still acted the way I did.
I tried so hard. Oh gosh. Why am I like this?
I know this one sided thing is stupid, as stupid as it can be but I’m just disappointed.
Disappointed at myself.
Who am I kidding? When they say letting go of something you love is the most hardest thing, they’re right.
I guess it takes time. Over time, it’ll get better, I mean even ex-lovers can become friends again (I’ve seen two examples). But who am I kidding. We’re just friends and everything has been one-sided all along.
Gosh. I’m a joke.
But yea, I shouldn’t do this to her, not one bit. I shouldn’t do this to my friends either. It’s not worth it.
I guess I just have to give myself time and recover.
Got to get this over with quickly.