I still cannot believe that the past few weeks happened. Like… really happened. When I woke up today, it truly felt like a dream. It’s ridiculous that it actually happened.
I know it has been a long time since I updated this blog and I have so many stories to share. But firstly and I guess the most interesting is that I fell in love.
I know… I know… I’ve fallen for a few in the past few semesters but I realised that in the past it was all about proximity and less about compatibility. It is funny how being in close proximity to someone can change your emotions you have towards them. I tried and I chased for a while but it ended up futile. I guess in the past I was immature about it and didn’t really understand the other person and about what they actually want. That’s when it kind of backfired. But insyaAllah, this one will be different.
You know, I always had that intention of just finding one and marrying that one. I never want to play around or break people’s hearts and it is with that intention that I decided to pursue her.
I have to say that I’m a very picky person, I always tell others that I have a checklist of traits that I look for, namely, the checklist in the hadith of the Prophet SAW:
According Prophet (Peace be upon him) said:
“A person chooses his life partner due to four reasons. 1. Rank 2. Money 3. Beauty 4. Taqwa (Virtue). One should choose who is best in Taqwa (Virtue)”
– [Sahih Hadith]
However, ultimately, even with that hadith in mind, I’m not one to tick off checkboxes as if they’re goods. They are not. They are living, breathing human beings with their own souls, character and emotions. Therefore, above all, I still seek for someone that can click with me easily and someone that I have no issue with at all or less so, someone that I’m never annoyed at.
However, ultimately, relationships are not a one-sided adventure. It requires the hard work of both parties, that means it is also my responsibility to give my fair share. Have I met all those reasons above? It is hard to say because I can never be objective but what I can say is that I’m trying.
Again, let me emphasize that this is my first time being in a relationship and one that I hold much hope for. After knowing her for more than a year, I see no reason why we wouldn’t work out. InsyaAllah, with the right intentions and by continuously seeking advice from people that we trust, it will work out.
Relationships are never an easy thing but as long both continue to support one another in development and growth, it’ll be smooth, insyaAllah.
وَمِنْ آيَاتِهِ أَنْ خَلَقَ لَكُم مِّنْ أَنفُسِكُمْ أَزْوَاجًا لِّتَسْكُنُوا إِلَيْهَا وَجَعَلَ بَيْنَكُم مَّوَدَّةً وَرَحْمَةً ۚ إِنَّ فِي ذَٰلِكَ لَآيَاتٍ لِّقَوْمٍ يَتَفَكَّرُونَ
And of His signs is that He created for you from yourselves mates that you may find tranquillity in them; and He placed between you affection and mercy. Indeed in that are signs for a people who give thought.