Another year.

Yet another year is over.

What have I actually done this year?

Well, the saddest part of this year is that my grades are somehow on a downfall. My CAP continues to traverse downwards and has been since the beginning of Year 2.

Last year, I think my issue was that I was too busy with other things. This year, rather, I think I was too free and I slacked off a lot. I mean I felt that I wasn’t doing much most of the semester and I think because of that it took a huge blow on my final results. To be honest, I cannot blame anyone for it except myself. However, despite all of that, I just hope to continue to maintain my current CAP for the last 3 semesters or even bring it back up.

Firstly, allow me to review my semester.

The past semester was very relaxed. Too relaxed in fact. It was to the point where I had almost no motivation to study because I knew that I could catch up at anytime. However, I realised that maybe because of that I wasn’t putting enough time into work. Even to study, I wasn’t actually studying and by the time I realised that, it was too late. I told myself at the beginning of the semester that the library is going to be my friend but it was only until the end of the semester that I studied in the library. Kind of disappointed about that.

Aside from that, I realised that I needed to have a better way of studying. Most of the time, I feel as if I was cramming information into my brain without properly understanding them. The problem with that is precisely that. It was cramming. Furthermore, I seemed to cherry-pick parts of the syllabus which I thought was important but in fact, in the exams, it wasn’t at all. Adding on to that, I feel that my notes were all over the place and I seemed to be studying haphazardly, repeating my notes and flipping too many times just to find the right information. I think I really need to relearn how to study because I really believe that cramming is not the way to go. Okay, that’s one.

Quality over quantity. I seemed to be studying a lot last semester but my mind is always distracted by other things. Now, during the holidays, I realised that it was distracted with a lot of nonsensical things, things that are not at all important. Furthermore, my studying discipline was down last semester and that is one important field that I need to reinforce upon myself.

Secondly, sacrifices. It is not all about studying next semester. I hoped to execute a few things next year and with execution, I need to sacrifice a lot of things. I feel that the time I spent with my social circle has to be reduced, by a lot. It is okay to have fun and games but I think with the heavy commitments and planning for the future that will be happening next year/semester, such sacrifices have to be made.

One thing is for sure, I will be doing my Final Year Project next year. Hopefully, I will learn to like the process of it and it might pave a way for me to do my PhD. If not, it is okay and I will move on. Aside from that, I will be spearheading a project for Freshmen Orientation Camp and one of my goals for the camp is to expose these new and fresh individuals to as many opportunities as possible. Furthermore, I am planning to be more proactive in my business. Photography, videography, China-resell and the likes. A better business model has to be built and it requires focus and a lot of experimentation. I guess you can say that next year will be a year of experimentations.

Fitness-wise, heh. I have to really start exercising again. It has been two years since I frequented the gym and I think I am going to go back to doing powerlifting. It is about time I get back into the shape I was when I came into NUS.

Anyway, the future is coming in fast and with that, I need to know what I’m going to do in the next five years. As far as I know, my plan is to work 2-3 years, get married and during all those time, work on my side hustle which is to intern/build my photography/videography business. Definitely it is going to be hard as the demand for professional photography lies usually in event photography. It is not that I do not like event photography but I feel that it is very stagnant and once I’m in it, it might not be easy to get out of it. However, if I were to stay in a freelance business, that in itself is not easy as your wage would be client dependent and thus, lead to too much flux and changes. Highly not dependable. Therefore, I feel that I need to find something or rather, a business where is inexpensive to start but can be sustained for the long run. My dream is still to build a design studio.

Hmm… There are a lot of things to focus on next year. I need to start priming my life to make that lifestyle a whole lot easier.

Oh, one more thing. I don’t think I will be competing next year as the competition would clash with my FYP submission. That would not be ideal as I’m planning to do my best for FYP so as to use it as a stepping board for maybe to pursue PhD. InsyaAllah.

– social life
– silat
+ library
+ a whole lot of seclusion and studying

I know life ain’t about studying but I need to reach a CAP that is somehow comfortable which should be about a 4.2 – 4.3 so that I’d graduate with a second-upper. InsyaAllah.

It’s going to be one hell of 2019.

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