this is the period when I’m stuck between letting go and letting God, and it is this period where I’m beginning to miss the little things that she does.
I miss the way she smiles.
I miss the way she puts her finger on her nose when she thinks.
I miss the way she poke her cheeks just to tease me.
I miss the way she runs away from me when I teased her.
I even miss her complaints about anything and everything and I just wished I had truly listened to her and comforted her when she needed me to.
I miss her everything.
and it sucks.
it sucks so much that there’s nothing that can be done about it except to accept it for how it is now. Somehow, it feels like a dream, surreal and ridiculous but I have to learn to accept it.
Gosh, I really hope she finds happiness and I hope I do too. Thank you for being in my life and I was truly lucky while it lasted. I also can’t wait for the day I wake up and realise that I’m over it. Till then…