I just want to let you know that I’m tired of feeling this way. I just want to let you know that this mind and heart wants to move on. I also just want to let you know that for whatever good that it was, for whatever effort I did put in into being that ‘someone’ for you, it was my best. And that I have learnt a lot from you since then.
Never would I have learnt how to love someone more than myself if not for you. Never would I have learnt to communicate, to talk and to share my feelings if not for you. Never would I have learnt to reach a middle ground and listen to others if not for you. Even after it happened, I continue to learn from you…
A part of me wants to try again and a part of me wants to respect your decision too but for whatever you might be thinking about ‘us’ and how ‘incompatible’ we might be in your eyes, I just hope that you will never look back. I want you to live your life to the happiest that you can ever be and meet that someone where you can find home in his arms. I want you to also find yourself, to love the things you love and continue to grow to be a better version of you, always.
As much as I want to hold you, to love you with all my heart, I know that this is not my decision alone. To try again means that for whatever happens later on, it will be of two extremes and I hope that with His help, we make the right decisions.
I know that you want us to be friends, to be as ‘platonic’ as possible but I don’t think I can because honestly, I still love you. A lot. I don’t know what the future holds for the both of us but what I do know is that it will be for the best. Unfortunately, we can never always be with the person we want to be with but He’ll show us the person that will be the best for us. We might not be the best for each other now but who knows what might happen?
I would be lying if I said that I don’t have hope that we might get back together again but I know that maybe I shouldn’t. Maybe… it was all for the best? I didn’t know things would ended up this way but if it didn’t happen, I would not have known the things that I know now. So, thank you.
I don’t think these feelings will disappear for a while more but may I make one last request?
“And if some other guy
Catches your eye
Please just text me your (last) goodbye”
And maybe then I’ll know that I have to move on.