What’s the appropriate answer to ‘How’s life?’

It’s a funny conversation that I overheard this morning:

A: Hey, how are you?

B: Good, good, as usual, if not I won’t be here.

It’s such a simple conversation but when Person B says ‘if not I won’t be here’, it made me wonder if we have ever been thankful/grateful for being where we are now in the first place. Whether we are truly grateful for still being alive despite all the bad circumstances that we were thrown into.

We are now at where we are because of Allah SWT and life will always be ‘good’ because it’s better than not being around at all (I think). We should always be thankful that we are still alive and able to carry on with our daily activities and see our loved ones.

No matter how painful the test is, we should always be thankful that we could have had it worse.

Look at the story of Prophet Ayubb AS where he was tested by Allah SWT where his wealth, health and progeny were slowly taken away from him but he held firm to the promise of Allah SWT and in the end, he was blessed with twice as much as he had before.

I know, I know, sometimes were in a rut, we’re facing mental illness and such but knowing your circumstances, know that Allah SWT is there and He’s always there. Know that you’re not suffering on your own.

May Allah SWT make us amongst the best of peoples and may He forgive us for all the sins that we’ve committed ever, both hidden and seen. May He grant us His Rahmah on the Day of Judgement and may we be shaded by His Arsh.

Amin.

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NUSMS Journey, a reflection

As they sat there chattering away and saying their goodbyes to each other, I can’t help but wonder about the shared memories that we had throughout the year. I can’t help but recall the arguments and discussions that we had in the beginning of the year and the slow realisation that we just have to do our best till the very end. Choking on tears, I can’t help but wonder if we would ever meet each other ever again or whether our paths will cross.

It is amazing how much had changed in the span of only a year. From being almost strangers at the beginning to comfortable colleagues that would end up executing a project that would last a whole year. I can’t completely express my emotions through text alone but I will try my best.

They have changed me for the better. Apart from delving deeper into Islam, I believe that it is true how the company that you have affects you as a person. They had somewhat moulded me to be a better Muslim. I guess I learnt a lot from them and becoming closer to God in the process. Now, my worry is that I wouldn’t be as religious as I stepped down from my position in the ExCo. Now, I think it has to come from myself, to put in the effort to continuously strive towards Allah SWT.

As much as I despised the workload every event, I enjoyed in trying to make myself better and achieve an idealistic goal I had in mind. I entered NUSMS with a vision of trying to make the publicity of NUSMS a string and capable one but after a few months or so, I realised that my skills are sorely lacking. I’m driven to better myself and I’m Glad that I’m slowly improving,

Impacting others to be better has always been my underlying motivation. It makes me happy to see that I have made someone better and that I had benefitted the community. NUSMS provided me with that platform and I have to commend my members for assisting me in achieving that, InsyaAllah.

I can’t say that I am sad to no longer be part of the ExCo but I can say that I am sad that I’m no longer in that clear position to make a change in the Muslim community in NUS. I know I can still give back to society by advising and pushing for my own projects but it’s different. However, I guess the upside is that I’m no longer confined to the rules and structure of a society.

I’ll definitely miss the people and as some of us will be continuing to the next Executive Committee, I can safely say that the next one will be the one to truly make a change, InsyaAllah.

I’m only worried for my publicists especially in both NUSMS and Silat as both of them are new to the scene though I’m confident of their technical skills. Being a Creative myself, I have a soft spot for them and may I be able to guide them and whoever else as well as how my seniors have guided me.

My biggest worry is that I wouldn’t be able to contribute back as much as I did before or even be a role model for the juniors that are coming in. Hmm… I’ll try my best.

Anyway, this is where I end this post.

Till we meet again.

Love.

Perfection is the enemy of action

We all know the meaning of perfection but have we ever seen perfection?

Sometimes we can get too caught up in the work that we are doing to the point where we strive for perfection; every single detail that seems off will be scrutinised by us. Sometimes, the strive for perfection is to the point where we actually never get anything done.

There is a saying by creatives which is to ‘just put out content’. We have to just release as much content/work as possible and not to be too caught up into making a perfect work. If so, we will be paralysed.

Analysis paralysis is also something that people might become obsessed with. Before starting a venture or in making a decision, we might tend to research too much into the things that we want to do that we don’t actually do it in the end. This is why ‘Perfection is the enemy of action’.

We need to learn to just put aside the need for perfection and go do. This I think is especially important for creators like me.

Day 1

The title of this blog post is called ‘Day 1’ because it will be the first day where I carry out my new routine for the coming semester. It is Fast isn’t it. Three months just flew by in a blink of an eye. What did I accomplish during those three months I wonder… Well, I earned money… about $680 in fact from doing part time. About $380 from my side hustle. I Guess the major accomplishment for this summer is me slowly going professional. I’m doing greater things and slowly I’ll focus on getting more clients and gigs.

However, it is scary to go out into the working world. You’re basically placed out there to fend for yourself and no one will be there to take care of you. I’ve been thinking a lot about adulthood especially since I have a partner now and I’ve tasted money earned from my own blood, sweat and tears. I’m looking into housing, finances and even insurance. It is going to be tough one but I think it’s better if I start it out early. We’re also already discussing marriage and what kind of weddings we want and most importantly, when. I know, I know, some would say that we’re too early to be talking about it but I can see no problems with her. There is isn’t a single trait that I dislike or cannot tolerate. I like every aspect of her. That’s why I’m not afraid to talk about it with her. I think she feels the same way. I hope so. Also, we’ve been talking about the number of children we want and such, including baby names. It’s amazing. I just pray and hope that we will reach that stage.

3 years we decided. 3 years before we can finally get married. By then, I’d be in the working world for about a year and probably (hopefully) have a stable enough income whilst working on my side hustle. That’s the dream.

Talking about dreams, I want to at least build one of three things: cafe, bookstore or a studio. She said that I should build all three which I think is a wonderful idea and thus, I had made it my goal. InsyaAllah, I will continue to work towards that.

Anyway, I’m sure you’re wondering what that photo is for. Well, it is from a book that I just bought titled, ‘The Daily Stoic’ by Ryan Holiday. That page talks about controlling what you can and focus only on what you can control. They say, do not look beyond the facts for it will not be helpful and you’ll only end up worrying on the things that you might not know would even happen or not.

I guess the take away from that is to never be so involved in predicting things and be so worried about things that haven’t happened for you might never know what will happen.

Inner demons

We all have diseases and inner demons to fight. Sometimes they overtake us and consume us while other times, we triumph and stand tall.

However, during those lows, we must always remember to continue to fight for the battle is not yet lost till we die.

It can become hard sometimes, trigger points can lie at any corner, however, we need to learn to navigate it and remind ourselves that we’re better than those demons inside.

Can we really win? I doubt so but at least we can put up a fight.

To be honest, I’m tired. Real tired of fighting the inner demons but what can I do but continue fighting?

Anything can be a trigger point and that’s what scares me, just a mere thought can lead me on a downward spiral.

Sigh.

I continue marching on.

Back

Hello world, it has been awhile since I write something. As of late, I haven’t been feeling so well. Not in the physical sense but in the emotional and spiritual sense. I don’t feel is controlled as I used to. I feel as if I’m chasing of the things is that things are happening so quickly that I don’t have the time to calm myself down and chill.

Many things have been happening in the past few days. From our friends commencements to working with the commencement committee to training and also spending time with your loved one. About that, I think I falling deeply in love. There are just so many things that I appreciate about her and I don’t remember anyone else in the past that could tolerate will even entertain my character and my quirks. Whenever I look at her I will come to realise that I was smiling and I don’t know why. Maybe, maybe I just find happiness when I’m with her. Ahh. Anyway, I can’t really write much or compliment her much because I think she might be reading this. If you are hello, sayang.

Okay, going back to the topic of today. I really think that having a routine is very important. I think I have written about this is in the past before. It was about the kinds of routines that worked for me. In the past, I had several things that I would do every day and that kept me on track. It started to teeter off last semester and I think that threw me off for the rest of the semester. That is why I think I need to get back the routine before the next semester comes. Furthermore, I’ll be competing this year and I do not want to be off my game. Alongside my side hustle and school, there’re so many things that I must achieve this year. I Guess many things are going for me and now, the final thing for the equation is my own hard work. I can’t fail any of this. I must push through.

Bismillah.

No entertainment ?

Just a thought: what would it be like if we cancel out all forms of entertainment from our life? I’m sure that we will have so much extra time but would we still be productive because technically, our brains do not have that ‘break’ or is that break an illusion due to our high usage of entertainment as a form of escapism?

Hmm…