It is Syawal.
And it is scaring me.
I think what scares me the most is how fast time flies. It felt like it was only yesterday when it was the beginning of Ramadan but in the blink of an eye it’s already Syawal.
Also the worry is that I wouldn’t have my sins forgiven doing the month of Ramadan. I think as a Muslim we strive to get our sins forgiven by God but that’s what we can only do. You can put in as much effort as we can but ultimately it is up to him to determine our fate. I think this time I reflect on the things that I did and achieved in this blessed month.
Firstly, I regret to inform you that I didn’t follow the goals that I had set for myself at the beginning of the month But I think I did a pretty good job in putting myself out there and trying to do good. I think it is partly because of the opportunities that was given to me such as Silat and NUSMS. One opportunity was to do a homemake over with 4PM. It was a collaboration with an external organisation and I think I learnt a lot from it. However, I kind of regret of my actions during the course of the event. I might not have had maintained Is it the level of respect for the person that I was helping. I kind of regret what I had said behind her back and I feel that it wasn’t right. Even though she was at the wrong, I had no right to say what I had said. After all, we were there to do good. No matter what happened, we should have just kept quiet and help her as much as we can. I only realised my mistake a few days after. By that time it was already too late. I think I can only pray that God forgive me for what I had done and may He accept our efforts.
Secondly, one of the good things that I think I did this month is that I manage to help out in giving food in the food distribution drive. Even though I could only help for about four days I feel accomplished and I think it was something out of my comfort zone and that help me a lot. I guess I realise that volunteering is quite fun actually but it depends what kind that I do. I would definitely be interested in volunteering more often In the future. I hope that there will be many more opportunities to help the community and to give back to the community in the future. I think it takes a heart to help someone in need.
Next, I managed to memorise several surahs And I am happy that I managed to do so. Even though I may need more practice I think I got it all figured out. I hope to memorise more in the future and I hope even after Ramadan the practice continues.
I think one lesson that can be learnt all that I had learnt in Ramadan is that one cannot be egoistic. After watching a drama series online I think every character in the series portrait a certain level of egoism which affects daily life. To be honest, such problems can be solved easily but however, due to how they compare themselves to others it affected the judgement. It also goes to show that not everyone with a sound mind or with education in religion can make clear judgements and decisions. Sometimes it is hard to not judge others because of the certain background that they were from. I think there are much lessons to be learnt and I think that especially applies to our daily lives.
In the end, it is up to us to make the right decisions no matter what society thinks of us.
As fast as Ramadan came, it left in an instant. We can only hope and pray that we will live till the next Ramadan. I just hope that we continue to hold on to the lessons that you have learnt in this blessed month. I pray that you continue to do good and we continue to rely on him and remember him as much as we can. I pray that we never neglect our obligations in this religion no matter where we are and who we are. May God forgive us for all our transgressions and mistakes that we have done in the past and may He continue to bless us with his blessings and gifts. Till then goodbye.
PS. This post was written primarily by dictation and I think that I’m going to start using it from now on. To be honest it felt like a dream, it felt like Harry Potter. I think technology has gone so far.