Tomorrow will be Week 4 of school. Can you believe that it has already been a month since school started? I don’t feel as if that is the case. It is either my modules are on a chill pace or I’m just not picking up as fast as I think I should be.
Anyway, as time draws nearer to examinations, the inertia to do things that one might not want to do increases. It becomes a chore to do them and without us knowing why, we become lazy and procrastinate the work. However, we need to recheck on why we feel that way because most of the time, we are not incapable of doing it but rather, we fear the work or the consequences that comes with doing a bad work.
I am guilty of that. As an aspiring entrepreneur, I need to work on my craft and my ideas. However, I have not been working hard enough in learning new skills and building up my portfolio and on the foundations of a company. I have yet to design a permanent logo and also a business plan and model. I probably have to start learning about investments.
Anyway, there is a lot of slack that I need to tighten and InsyaAllah, I’ll get there some day,. I just got to work harder.
I think most of us are afraid of testing ourselves, to know where we stand to the point that we scare ourselves to mediocrity.
Instead of testing ourselves and pushing ourselves to the limit, we lead lives or normalcy, never growing, never developing.
Just like a muscle that only grows upon stress, we should put ourselves in stressful situations to know how far we can achieve. Only through such experiences can we truly become better.
One such example is that of National Service. To be honest, I don’t know how I went through 7 months of painful Rota Commander training but it was with that pressure and stress that made me the fittest that I’ll ever be. And looking forward, there’s nothing that is worse or can be worse than that!
We should never be afraid to put ourselves through sh**. One thing is entrepreneurship. One cannot always be comfortable and count the risks. Go all in and learn how far can you go. Sometimes, it might surprise you.
In our daily lives that is filled with overconsumption, we tend to be dragged into the act of consuming more and more even when we do not need it. We fall into the trap of always wanting more despite the fact that whatever we have at home is enough.
Why do we do that? Should we blame our environment, the government?
No. Blame yourself.
We should strive to cut as much unwanted nonsense from our lives as much as possible. This does not mean that we have to embrace the minimalism life but we should at least not clutter our lives with needless things that would just collect dust.
Decluttering has been proven to be therapeutic and also freeing. I, myself have been striving to make my life more efficient, cleaner and simpler but apart from the mess of the wardrobe, I think I’m doing a pretty good job. Maybe tomorrow, I might declutter some more.
One thing that I’ve learnt from her in the past 4 months that we have been together is her sincerity in doing things. But before that, bit of back story, she is a hustler. She juggled so many responsibilities and duties and pushes herself to the limit. Sometimes, well, most, she would sleep late and even forget about eating all together. She would then proceed to tell me all about it and told me to not worry. Heck.
Anyway… when I asked her why wouldn’t she drop at least one thing, she said that she has to do it because she’s doing it for Allah SWT. That made we wonder if I am really a bad person? Deep down, I do feel as such. To be honest, I am quite disappointed in myself. Looking at her, it made me realise how much more humanity that I need to instil into myself and how her akhlak and character are just superior. It actually add ,e wonder if I have been doing things for Allah or for other reasons?
This is a good segwey to an article that I read online written by Mark Manson:
It is a review article kinda thing on Immanuel Kant’s writing on ethics. He talks about whether we are doing something or using someone as a means to achieve an end goal that we have set and if we do, we are regarded as unethical.
So the question is whether I have unethical all these while. Whether I have used others to my own advantage and whether I have the right intention from the very beginning. One is whether I am taking photographs for the benefit of the client or just because I want to milk money from them? That’s also one of the reason why I don’t want to charge too much.
I don’t think I’ll ever be like her but I will always learn something new from her. May she continue to teach me the lessons in life and may Allah SWT continue to guard her heart and give her strength, always.
I need to always revisit my intentions and may I be on the right path.
Really. Especially since we are creatures with ego.
Have we ever done a mistake and not blame someone for it? I mean, sometimes even if we realised that that person could not have possibly done something, we would just blame them just to have someone else take the blame for it.
With our egos, we tend to push away faults and responsibilities. But I guess, it usually our own fault that things turned out badly and this lesson is especially important for the entrepreneurs out there. Entrepreneurs only have themselves to blame for their failures. They cannot blame anyone else because it is their dream that they are building. They too are the top dog in their business. They call the shots and they have to take 100% for any problems that ensues.
That’s pretty sad but that’s the truth.
We need to learn to not blame others but ourselves.