GO FOR IT.

All of us are capable of doing good work.

But most of us are not willing to do good work.

Why?

Because it is risky.

We would rather be enslaved by ‘The Man’ and do mundane work just because it pays the bills.

But is that wrong?

No. To be honest, I am completely fine with that as long as you’re not complaining about how sh***y your boss is or how long the working hours are. I am completely fine with it because if that is what makes you happy, you should go for it. If stability is what you seek then go for it. If you think that paying the bills and getting a decent honest living is important to you then go for it. However, what I’m annoyed about is whoever that complains about how their 8-6 job restricts their creativity and how it is so inflexible and routined, how they wish to be free and knowing that, they still stayed on.

I’m ticked off at how one does not even attempt to do anything about their circumstances and resort to complaining because it is easier to do so. It is hard, chasing your dreams is hard, being a self-employed creative is hard… but if that excites you and that fulfills you, you should go for it.

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A part of your dream

How does one keep a high level of productivity?

In a world where productivity trumps everything, how does one continually maintain a high level of ‘do’?

How is it possible to continuous put in effort into the work that you do day in and day out?

Passion/interest.

If you love the work that you do, if you care about the work that you do, you would do it regardless.

But sometimes work consists of the mundane like keeping tabs on excel sheets and documents, how then can we ‘love’ such work?

I guess the best advice I can give is to pair it with something that makes you feel fulfilled. Excel sheets, documents and paperwork are all part of the foundation that makes your dream a reality. They are the groundwork that you need to do so that you can enjoy the fruits later on. Think about it as things that would put you up for success, things that will help you build your dreams. They are not just paperwork, they are actually a part of your dream.

Therefore, by pairing up these mundane tasks to the things that actually inspire and drive you, you wouldn’t think of it as a hassle anymore. InsyaAllah.

Hustle Smart

it has already been three weeks since the semester ended and I must say that this semester is truly lonely. Most of the time, I am on my own, going about from lab to lecture and then to the library. I see people but most of the time I do not have a decent conversation with them, even with my loved ones.

I think it is also because of my inherent nature to focus on my work this semester. I mean I have been consistent in my work and have been producing things (albeit halfway for most) but I have. I have picked up on several projects which I think is interesting and I’m very much interested in completing. Furthermore, I have started to think more about my start-up that I’m trying to build and my career in the future.

Also, there will be a career fair next week though I’m not sure if I would be going there. I’m quite apprehensive about the whole thing because I’m not planning to ‘work’ for real or work for the corporations that are out there. I’m more interested in working in the small start-ups that will give me ample space to put in my ideas and ways for me to contribute. Regardless, I have to also think of finding that stable income.

There are several things to think about: marriage, career and what’s next.

Marriage is a definite. We’re planning to get hitched within 2-3 years time depending on our finances which is then dependent on having a job that pays well for a short amount of time (2-3 years too) and planning for several adult things like life insurance, housing (BTO), retirement planning and the like.

Next up is Career. Definitely, I will not be working for ‘the man’ but I will be side-hustling whilst working just to maintain a decent pay before I can jump ship. It is going to be hard and that is why I have to start working on my ideas from now on.

What’s next. There are a lot of things to focus on now but I think the most crucial of all is to get this university done and over with a 2nd class honours, minimum. I think that would put me on a safe playing field once I graduate. Furthermore, I don’t think I would be pursuing a PhD or a Masters (well depends) because of the nature of the field that I might be going in. As I’m doing my FYP now, I kind of has a sense of how the day-to-day life in a lab will be like and it is really putting me off. Despite all the boring stuff, it is interesting to learn about all of it but that’s just that, learning. I don’t think I would be interested in following ‘a path’ of continuous research and discovery. A life of troubleshooting is definitely not for me. Kind of numbs the brain after a while in my opinion.

Anyway, that’s that. I think I just have to keep hustling from now on regardless of my emotional situation. I think it is possible.

haven’t felt it

I think what I haven’t felt in a long time is peace.

I feel as if I have just been existing and moving through life, following the flow and colliding. I have yet to truly know peace. Regardless, I felt a tinge of it today. I guess it is the weather or it is just the day itself but I felt calm for once.

Anyway, I seek peace and I can’t wait to feel a lasting state of peace yet again. May He grant that to me.

24

“How old are you?”

“24”

In my heart: Heck, 24?! I’m getting old. There’s no turning back.

When we were 16, we thought that when someone is 24, they would have their life together with all the aspirations to achieve success. We thought that they would be mature adults filled with mature thinking and able to make decisive decisions. Well, it is far from the truth.

I don’t think most of us who are 24 even have readiness to be an adult.

WE’RE JUST CHILDREN STUCK IN ADULT BODIES.

We still want to have fun, take risks, do stupid things. We are still exploring freedom.

But again, society strikes and just upon reaching our 25th birthday, the peak of freedom, we are struck by societal norms. The need to find a job, to settle down, to buy a house and ‘get our sh** together’. Regardless, we are forced into following what society asks of us and so we conform. There is no longer any time and space to procrastinate and ‘do what we want’. Maybe there is a paradigm shift in that sort of thinking in the West but not here in the East. We are still stuck in that mindset of finding a good job for a good life regardless of what we want in life. That was how our parents survived and that is what they thought us to live. To them, what is ‘passion’? It is as close a foreign word as French.

But upon realising that I’m 24 with 3 semesters left before real life hits, it somewhat give me a motivation boost to start working on my future and prepare the necessary things that I need to survive adulthood for decades to come. Aside from plans to settle down and buying a house, the thought of what my career would be also filled my already preoccupied brain. Regardless, it is something that I have to dive into.

I guess like what I said in the beginning of the semester which is to treat this year as a year of ‘experimentation’, I would. It is a year where I need to take as much risks as possible regardless of the consequences though they have to still be legal.

BTO
SPA_CEDOUT
PHOTOGRAPHY
RELIGION/QURAN

I think that is all for now.

Aside from the other commitments that I have like FYP and FOC, I think this will be a good year of trial and error.

Maybe I’m not nice

Maybe I’m not as good as a person as I thought I was.

Maybe all of this is a front for the person who I truly am, a child hidden in an adult’s body. Maybe I’m just lying to myself, trying to believe in a child’s dream. Who am I to say that I can one day be successful? Who am I to be able to control my emotions and always be ‘the nice one’.

Sometimes I can’t help but speak my mind. Is it wrong to do so? Maybe it is the delivery and the timing? I don’t know. People always think that I come across as rude. Am I really? Is it because of my inability to read through walls upon walls of body language that makes me feel this way? And I thought that I am able to read body language easily. I thought wrong.

Maybe I should have been the supportive one. Instead of criticising, I should have listened to her more. I shouldn’t have aired my grievances too early. I was annoyed, yes, but maybe it was at the wrong time. She is having it hard and I should have understood that. I was too honest. Maybe I was too blunt.

Sigh. How do I change as a person? It is how I have been all these while. I need to be more patient and I should be working on it. It is just disappointing to know that I am full of flaws. Humans are full of flaws but it is just saddening to see your own as clear as daylight.

Hmm…

A list.

good morning.

I want to hustle like Gary Vaynerchuk but I think I lacked the things to do?

Regardless, I will try to hustle like him this week and get as many things done as possible. However, I still do not understand why I will fall asleep every single time when I’m reading lecture notes. It is the worst. Maybe it is my brain telling me that the content is boring or maybe it is just me as a person. Hmm… whatever it is, I must try to stay awake. I know that I’m not actually tired but rather, it is my body that enters this semi-rest mode that makes me sleepy. I need to be more engaged.

Anyway, it is already Day 4 of school and I’m feeling pumped for what is to come. I guess from my experience in school this week, it will be a very lonely semester though I think it is about time.

Okay, the hustle continues. I need to make a list of the things to do.