Unique Identity

Being a creative is not easy.

All of us try to be original, having our own work of art, own style, own ways of doing things.

However, it becomes increasingly hard as the world continuously becomes saturated with creative pieces, some great, others, not so great.

Therefore, for a creative to achieve their own unique identity in the world is tough.

But, we have to continue to struggle, for success doesn’t come easy.

 

Chaos

Finding structure in chaos.

When I think about chaos, I imagine a dark whirling tornado that warps the fabric of space and time.

A deep kind of darkness where nothing escapes its grasp, not even light.

Chaos.

It would be an overstatement to say that my life is in that current state, however, it would be an understatement not to. But you won’t see it because it’s all in my mind.

I cannot see structure in this chaos that threatens to consume me whole,

All I could see is the dying light that is tinkling like shining gold.

It would be great if I could just find structure,

In this state of disaster,

At least something that can help me,

Through the rest of the semester.

I’m Not Good

As vocal as I am about praising myself, I’m in fact not good in anything.

I don’t have the skills of a professional photographer, the words of an expert writer nor the design talent of a skilled designer. I am just an amateur in the fields I’m delving into.

I have much to learn and I’m glad that I recognise that because it creates space for the development of my learning and the mastering of the craft.

There’s still a long way to go but I’m optimistic.

Imagination/Creativity

I think imagination and creativity are like wells that need to constantly be filled from an outside source. The way we can feed it is through reading, watching, thinking, writing and pondering.

I haven’t had much inspiration as of late and it has been a while since I have been on a week long hiatus from posting photographs/stories on Instagram. If today hadn’t been a day for my publicity team to release some content, I believe I might not have posted anything for another week or two.

Currently, my brain is just void of any ideas, stories and concepts. Maybe it is just mentally drained from the chaos from the first week of school or maybe it is because I’m still trying to tie some loose ends before the semester picks up speed.

Whatever it is, I need to get my sh** together quickly.

I hate the feeling of the lack of creativity and even though making videos is a type of creative outlet for me, it doesn’t trigger my brain as much as writing or reading does.

I need to focus on putting more concepts into my mind, playing around with ideas and stories, and maybe soon, I’d get a eureka moment for a story.

Once we’re sad…

can we then begin to appreciate the emotion of happiness.

What is happiness without sadness?

I believe that one has to understand and recognise sadness as much as they want to feel happiness for they come hand in hand.

By tasting the saltiness of a tear, the feeling of wet cheeks, the uncontrolled trembling, can one begin to appreciate the adrenaline rush of a smile, the warmth of a laugh, the elation of the heart.

 

 

I’m Humbled.

I’m humbled by the fact that there were so many people that recognised me with certain traits that I do or by a certain style of my posts, be it on whatever social media platform that I’m on.

I’m humbled by the fact that people actually gave attention to some of the work I did, e.g. vlogs, photographs and the like.

I’m humbled by the way people are sometimes willing to open themselves up to one another, even though they do not know the person they’re talking to that well.

I’m humbled by the fact that things happen and we’re at the mercy of fate.

I just feel sometimes, incidents happen, or life just happens, and it reminds us of how powerless and weak we are. That sometimes, our work can go unnoticed but during a few rare occasions, they were.

It reminds me of what my intentions are for putting my work out there, not for the recognition (only), but to improve my creative side and my craft.

There’s so much more wonderful memories to be made and so much more work to be done.

I can do this!