Priorities = Time


Recently, I have been complaining about time, the lack of.

But what I realised is that it isn’t because I don’t have enough time to do the things I need, want or expected of me but it is because I didn’t prioritise my tasks properly.

I have several responsibilities on my hands right now and I’m constantly juggling between all of them. And because of this, I’m constantly getting confused about dates, times, locations and the like.

Furthermore, it felt as it these tasks were also taking up my studying time which later on eats up my sleeping / alone time (which I truly need to stay productive).

Multitasking, that’s it. I have been multitasking, never spending enough time to be in DEEP WORK which is crucial. Thus, causing the problems I’ve stated above.

I didn’t prioritise my tasks properly, always mixing and changing about between tasks whenever they come up. Note to self: not good.

I need to have a keystone task that will keep me grounded and onward towards balance. I think that would be my studies.

In the last semester, I made it a goal to study at least 5 hours a day. It was a mild success (a success, nonetheless). That was my keystone task as anything I do during the day is towards reaching and striving that goal (which kept me focused and neat).

I think I will still keep that goal in mind this semester.

Priorities. Priorities. Priorities.



Write what you want

I know… I know..

The instant dopamine rush the moment you see the likes pile up in your notifications can be very satisfying but that shouldn’t be the reason you write.

I have always strived to write whatever I want in my blog posts and the moment I steer off course, my writing would become cold and horrible. I believe in the past, there are a few examples of that (some digging is needed).

Write what you want, not what you think your readers want and when you start to write something that you are not interested in just for the likes, people can smell that crap from miles away.

Be yourself, I guess, is an awesome advice. Well, people do give that advice especially if you want to ask someone out. Maybe, there is some substance in that and thus, I guess, it applies to writing too.

Make sure that topic that you write about fascinates you and therefore, channel that fascination into your writing. Convince the readers why the topic that you are writing about it so fascinating and naturally, the likes will come!

So, write! Write about the things that you love, the things that interest you and the things that make you, you!

The Lies People Tell Themselves

“Some lies took hold and spread, crackling with excitement, and no longer needed to be fed. But then these were no longer your lies. They had a life and shape of their own, and there was no controlling them.” —The Lie Tree by Frances Hardinge

I am fine.

I am better than this.

I’m okay, I’m okay, I’m okay…

It’s not my fault, it is never my fault, it was always them!

I’m capable, I don’t need anyone’s help.

I’m doing something good, aren’t I?

Just one more.

Okay, this will be the last.

I love myself, I love myself, I love myself…

I have friends, good friends.

I love her, don’t I?

I’m the worst person alive.

Useless, I’m useless.

I’m never going to be good enough.

I’m done, I can’t do this anymore…

We tell ourselves lies every single day, lies that we hope to become truths one day or lies that would make us feel how we think we should feel. Maybe, sometimes we don’t think that we deserve to be happy and so we lie to ourselves to put ourselves down, skewing our perceptions and how we see ourselves as a person.


Lost in a Story

I am lost in a story, entranced by the scene that unfolds before me. Amazed by the writer’s ability to capture a piece of my soul and place it in the world that they had created.

I was lost in a book, a story, a fictional life of a fictional character, captivated by its peaks and able to relate with its lows.

The book was ‘The Lie Tree’ by Frances Hardinge.

As I type this, I am in the last chapter of this book which clinched the Costa Book of the Year for the year 2015, I can see why.

A part of me felt as if it was trapped inside the book, looking down on the characters as their lives unfold, judging and questioning their every action and consideration.

A good book is when you lose the track of time when reading — when time doesn’t matter anymore — and all you want is to continue reading.

And, that was a good book.

On Writing

It is amazing how liberating the feeling of pen on paper is,

the carefully written strokes,

the smooth curves of alphabets,

the formation of words from intangible ideas.

It is amazing how clear my mind becomes as I write,

the thunderous crash of emotions as I transcribe my ideas on paper,

pouring out every single essence of feeling and thinking,

each word put down with a purpose,

to create a picture of a thought for others to see.

It is amazing how great writers write,

their stories full of emotions,

each part playing a larger role in keeping the reader engaged,

each line carefully thought out,

carefully curated.

It is amazing how writing connects people together,

sharing experiences and stories through the common medium of language,

allowing us to superimpose ourselves into the countless worlds beyond our reach,

allowing us, for once, to experience the world through the heart of another.

Wouldn’t It Be Great?

Wouldn’t it be great if life turns out the way we want it to be? Wouldn’t it be great if we are able to achieve everything that we ever wanted? Wouldn’t it be great if we never have to experience hardships?

Well, maybe.

In the book, ‘The Time Keeper’ by Mitch Albom, there is a quote that says:

“With endless time, nothing is special. With no loss or sacrifice, we can’t appreciate what we have”

— Mitch Albom, The Time Keeper

It would be wonderful to be able to achieve everything that we ever wanted from our dream careers to the relationships that we have. However, I believe by having so removes what makes us truly human. When we are given or, spoonfed rather, allowing us to achieve everything that we ever wanted, it removes what makes failing or loss so special, it removes our sense of appreciation.

Training hard for a competition, studying for hours to prepare for an examination and working long hours every single day to build a successful company, all of the blood, sweat and tears put in will make us appreciate our successes even more. We understand the tremendous amount of effort that is required.

So, maybe…

Maybe it would be great but maybe it wouldn’t be either.


When It Starts to Become a Chore

I have been writing blog posts every single day for more than a month now and it is an activity that I enjoy very much. However, there are days when I feel unmotivated, days when I feel worn down and tired, days when I feel that writing has become a chore instead of something that gives me inspiration.

It becomes difficult to write, struggling to put words on the page, each attempt producing nothing of essence resulting in increased frustration and wasted time. So I did what I thought was the most logical which is to move away from it.

I have this principle — I’m pretty sure I read it from somewhere — when it comes to writing or creating anything, which is to distance yourself away from it whenever there is no smooth flow of ideas. It is to prevent frustration from building up and turning a once enjoyable activity becoming something that we dread.

Furthermore, I think that sometimes our minds just need time. It needs time to process and think, it needs time to form patterns and ideas, and it needs time to connect all of the information that you have given it.

To me, writing has always been something I am interested in and fascinated with and I would not want to ruin the enjoyment that I get from it. Thus, I try my very best to stay clear of it being a chore:

  1. Write when I want to write and never when I’m tired
  2. Get inspired
  3. Read