When You Lose Control

What do you do if you can’t even control your own body?

 

I’m suffering.

In my own body.

It’s mechanisms, working, moving by itself.

It is a futile effort to stop it, to control it,

for when it begins,

it will never stop.

 

Only a will of iron,

or a heart that doesn’t tire,

can save me.

 

But I did it before,

stopping,

controlling,

but my body overcame my willpower,

and I fell back into that treacherous hole,

that I had once climbed out of.

 

It is lonely in here,

with no one to talk to,

not a soul to hear,

but only shadows that I fear,

creeping slowly towards me.

 

I’m afraid,

that every moment I spent in here,

is a moment closer,

to me,

being consumed by it,

consumed by my body,

that has a mind of its own.

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Don’t Be Sad, Don’t Be Depressed

I came across the video above as I was scrolling through Facebook. I agree 100% what Prince Ea shared in that video.

There are times when you feel down and destroyed as if you are constantly being pummeled by an emotional hammer. There are times when stress and confusion fill your brain, making you feel lost and frustrated. There are times when you feel worried and unsure because you think that you are not good enough. But know this, those emotions are fleeting. They come and they go. Never will such emotions stay.

What stays is you. You are constant. You decide what defines you, to be happy or to be sad, to be optimistic or to be depressed. You are after all the author of your life. You are in control of how you want to feel, how you see the world and how you react to it. Do not let something else defines you, especially something that comes and goes.