Effort ≠ Results

Screw this.

When I see my results from the tests I have taken, they do not reflect the effort that I had put in.

I feel disappointed, really. It is as though the universe is telling to give up and go home.

Honestly, why am I putting so much effort anyway?

I tried so hard to do better, maybe I haven’t been trying hard enough? Have I been lying to myself all these while?

Or maybe I never had the potential to begin with?

I don’t know. Honestly, it is tiring to chase after something that can never be caught.

However, I just know that deep within, I could do better but it just isn’t happening.

I guess, for now, I need to reevaluate my studying techniques. Maybe it really isn’t just quantity but quality. Possibly, my quality is lacking and thus, I need to brush them up.

Oh, help me please.

I know giving up is never the way and I shouldn’t dwell on my failures.

But it really is painful to see that all those hours have gone to waste.

It starts now.



We Better Put In The Work

I think this is more of a reminder for me than for any of you that is reading this.

I need to remind myself countless times throughout the day that whatever I am doing now must have an ROI for my future, if not, it is not worth it. Most of the time, I would procrastinate and shift my attention to something less important and recently, it has become more difficult to shift my attention away. It is a problem that I am still struggling. However, I have decided to take a step back and review my life once again, an activity that I highly suggest all of you to do.

I realised that over time, I have become less motivated in what I do, not really putting in the time and effort to complete a task. Also, over time, my routine has slowly broken down by bits and pieces and now, what is left is a pile of nothingness. Some of you might have the same problem, occasionally getting distracted by the most basic things like social media and thus, getting our work affected but I guess that is part of having an independent life where everything from the time to wake up to what to eat for dinner is all up to us. Therefore, it is also up to us to audit our lives and fix what is causing the problem.

For me, the problem was the loss of a strict routine. Without it, my life is in a mess. I had no direct idea on what to do next or what to expect. That is what I need to fix as soon as possible.

How we use our time might be the only thing that we have full control over. We can use it to do productive work or we can use it to procrastinate, it is all up to us. Therefore, I would always remind myself to put in the work or I will regret it in the future.