I write…

Oh my. I want to write so bad, I could feel my mind ticking for every moment that passes.

My fingers itched to slam down my thoughts onto that keyboard, to hear the beautiful clicking and tapping of the keys.

I couldn’t wait to share with the world, my ideas, my inspiration and my eureka moments. I. just. could. not. wait.

Therefore, as if I have an idea that could change the current paradigm of the world, I began to type.

But who am I kidding?

I ain’t Charles Darwin with years of knowledge, scientific research and adventures to back up his theory.

I ain’t Plato with philosophical ideas and stories that could wreck havoc in the minds of 20-year-olds today.

I ain’t George R.R. Martin with a creative mind that can build worlds that beautify the minds of readers.

I’m just a blogger, a passionate wannabe writer, a creative-in-progress.

Why would anyone want to listen to my ideas, my thoughts, my perspective for I have no credentials nor a reputable reputation?

I guess, I just love the feeling of typing, of sharing, of clearing my mind of the daily baggage of ideas and creativity. It does not matter if no one reads it. It truly doesn’t matter.

I write because ultimately, it is for the past me, the current me and the future me.

Maybe one day I’ll be good enough move up a level, to step out of the blogosphere and into real writing. Maybe.


Finding structure in chaos.

When I think about chaos, I imagine a dark whirling tornado that warps the fabric of space and time.

A deep kind of darkness where nothing escapes its grasp, not even light.


It would be an overstatement to say that my life is in that current state, however, it would be an understatement not to. But you won’t see it because it’s all in my mind.

I cannot see structure in this chaos that threatens to consume me whole,

All I could see is the dying light that is tinkling like shining gold.

It would be great if I could just find structure,

In this state of disaster,

At least something that can help me,

Through the rest of the semester.

Either one…

If there’s one thing that I learn from these past few weeks of chaos is that one cannot have everything.

There is always a choice to be made; either this or that.

One cannot ever have the time to do everything they put their mind to. One can try… but that’s it.

We have 24 hours in a day but do we actually?

I mean, minus sleep, minus travel, minus meals, etc, how much time do we actually have left?

Furthermore, when one worked until the next day, sleep has to be repaid. That would take more time off of the new day.

You see, time is there but it is always and will always be limited.

Thus, a choice has to always be made.

So, what do I choose now?

Is it wrong to be opinionated?

I can say that I am a very opinionated person.

Be it in religion, science, politics and so on.

But are there downsides to that?

As far as I can tell, the only downsides are the thought of being put down, pushed aside and rejected. But I feel that the ups are more than the downs.

I’m glad to be able to enjoy technology which provides a platform for continuous discussion and learning. Be in social media or this blog, it gives me an outlet to not only vent (I actually rarely do that) but also to pose my thoughts and opinions out for debate.

And by opening my mind to new perspectives and thought processes, I believe I’ve learnt a lot.

Though, there are still a group of ignorant trolls that don’t fail to piss me off.

I guess, for now, I’m just going to embrace this opinionated version of myself and see where that brings me. 🙂



To get to utopia, one has to go through dystopia


To get to utopia, you have to go through dystopia.

I got this thought when I was watching this video in the early morning (you know, get all the thought processes going). Anyway, what struck me was that to achieve a utopian society, like how communism envisioned a utopia to be, one has to go through a dystopia.

A utopia is a place of ideal perfection especially in laws, government, and social conditions whereby everything is perfect… or so it seems. However, the thought is all fine and dandy until you think about the pains and the troubles to sustain or even to reach utopia. A good example is the Communist Regime in the USSR where the idea was to build a utopic world of complete fairness and equality, removing hierarchy and classes. Look at how that turned out to be with the violent deaths and unjustified killings.

A few questions that we might want to think of when we want to build a utopia: How does one maintain social order or complete obedience to one’s envision of a utopia? How would you ensure that people cooperate and act in the way that you want that utopia to be? Finally, on what grounds/level should we maintain/control the human condition?

Now, it looks like the vision of a utopic world has been turned upside down which might be why it is impossible to achieve it.

Well, here’s a thought, is there a way for us to create a society that comes close to utopia? A form of governance maybe?

Ultimately, we have to think whether it is all worth it, whether the benefits outweighs the cost.

P.S. Democracy/Meritocracy/Capitalism and the like does not even come close to a utopic world. Nothing of any human form of governance will ever come close to it. Each form of governance has their own flaws and setbacks. It is not because of the idea itself but because of the human condition of wanting many things, never satisfied, and never able to work as a single organism.

Most things are achievable

Today I came to the realisation that most things are achievable if we put our mind to it.

I realised that things or tasks just get easier once you overcame that mental barrier that you’ve set for yourself.

Sometimes, you do not know the existence of such a barrier until you hit it head on.

I’m lucky to mingle around with so many talented people in university, each with their own sets of achievements and successes. It made me realise that it is also possible for me to achieve what they did because fundamentally, we’re all the same.

The only difference between each individual from another is what we set our mind to. Once we’ve mastered the skill of overcoming every mental barrier and commit to the task at hand, I’m sure all of us are able to achieve great things.

A Tragedy, or so I thought.


Today was bad. My phone died on me. It short-circuited or something and just wouldn’t switch on.

And if you had experienced this before, you know how bad it felt, like a blow to your face.

Technology is like an extension of myself. Contacts, information and entertainment at my fingertips, and without a doubt, in the future, it might be worse.

It made think about how we start to grow dependent on technology from places to eat to basic everyday facts. Though, maybe that is a good thing. Technology removes the burden of knowing to them, allowing us to be free to think creatively, to ponder about thinks that we otherwise wouldn’t. We become more human in that case, to be creative. Instead of being the encyclopaediae, we become the curator – compiling and digesting information to find the meaning behind them.

Maybe, technology is good after all. Hmm… A thing to ponder about.