I started this blog because I treasure memories and I wanted to record them down for my future self to read.
But for that to work effectively, I have to be 100% open and truthful too.
So, let me be just that.
There’s a lesson that I believe has been one of the hardest for me to digest and practice, which is the lesson of humility.
Death and prayer bring humility to the soul of a person. However, I have yet to truly grasp the essence of being humble. To know how to be humble is one thing but to truly practise the art of humility is another.
It is even more so when the urge to get recognition, validation from others will continue poking at you like an annoying little brother. I guess, it just shows how deep I have dived into this world of gratification and a habit I’m trying hard to break.
I guess it all started when I begin to realise that having people associating you with your work is a confidence booster. It truly is. But, slowly and surely, it will become something that consumes you as your work is now more focused on capturing the attention of others instead of honest and sincere work.
Once you get that validation ball rolling, your humility will slowly disappear. And that is something that I truly fear.
In National Service, I was always taught and told to be humble, to respect others and bring yourself low. This lesson was especially important for officers like me. In retrospect, however, I guess it was a lesson that I did not embody and I truly regretted that. Maybe my life in NS would have been vastly different otherwise.
In Islam too, we were taught be humble, to bring ourselves down to the level of others, to speak kindly and on the same frequency as the person we’re talking to.
There are still so much more that I can learn to embody the art of humility. A lesson that I’m painstakingly trying to master.
I guess, it all takes time. All I have to do is persevere on.
I will also try to be sincere in my craft. To put aside the thought of validation and do it sincerely, for the sake of my future self.