Long, deep conversations

There’s beauty in long, deep conversations.

If I were to have a favourite type of conversation, it would be long, intense, intimate conversations. Those are the conversations that allows one to pour out their souls, their hopes, dreams and aspirations.

Those conversations are the key to getting to know someone truly deeply.

In Singapore, we call those conversations, Heart to Heart Talks (HTHT). It is a common practice here during camps, suppers, or just in simple gatherings of close friends. I guess it was set as an intention to get to know people on a whole new level from strangers which hopefully will turn into friends.

For me, such conversations give me a mushy, fuzzy feeling inside. An emotion that I truly love and embrace. I guess it stems from my fascination of knowing someone else, especially someone new. It allows me to get to know someone’s perspective, ideas, thoughts and priorities. But I guess, it is much deeper than that. In afterthought, maybe, it might have been a way for me to see the state of my life, to listen to their experiences and learn from their lessons. To reap some sort of benefit and apply it into my life.

Yesterday, I had one of such conversations. I totally dived deep into it, fascinated (as I always was) about his life stories and things that I would never have known if not for such conversations. And one thing that I learnt from it is that, sometimes, caring too much isn’t good. Once one sees an opportunity, one should dive straight into it without much care for what happens next. One has to do that in order to prevent analysis paralysis.

It was an amazing conversation and it would’ve continued late into the night if we weren’t rushing to get home.

There’s a lesson behind all of this. It is that intellectual or just pure honest conversations can really build strong connections between people.

And one should always strive to do that.

I will.


Year 1, Semester 1

These are just 10 things that I’ve learnt in Year 1, Semester 1 in university:
  1. There is always time to do things, it is just up to you to plan your time properly. Every single minute of the day must be treasured and used to the max.
  2. Quality is better than quantity. Be it in terms of revision hours, sleep hours or even time spent socialising.
  3. 20 Seconds of courage. We need to always be brave for just a mere 20 seconds and step out of our comfort zone. We need to be brave to try new things and talk to new people.
  4. Ask, ask, ask. If you do not know something, ask. Don’t be shy because everyone is there learning too. You might actually do them a favour by asking. Also, ask your professors and TAs. Make use of them.
  5. It is important to make friends. The more friendships you make, the easier your life is in university. The more options that you open yourself up to.
  6. There’s always lessons to learn from everyone. Each and everyone in university has at least 18 years of life experience. Tap on that.
  7. Sometimes, we need to learn to stop fighting a futile battle. Sometimes, you just couldn’t get your head around certain modules or what the module is asking from you. Just recognise that sometimes we need to put our weapons down and re-strategise.
  8. Learn to accept that sometimes, hard work does not pay off. There’s always someone better than you or you’re just not good at it. Disappointment can creep in when you get a bad result. Learn to stand up again, take a breather and move on quickly.
  9. Make mistakes. That’s the only way to learn.
  10. You are never alone. There’s always someone out there experiencing the same problem you are.


We don’t matter to the Universe

We are just a speck of nothingness in this vast universe that stretches endlessly.

We are like atoms vibrating from one place to another, our existence means nothing to the wider world that is the universe.

Yet, we still think that we matter.

Unfortunately, we don’t.

Who are we to trample on other human beings, to bring others down and crush them beneath our boots?

Who are we to even consider that the world revolves around us?

Our existence will never make a difference to the universe nor will the universe even care if we exist.

And that is just the truth.

But aside from that depressing thought, we may not matter to the wider world, or even to the government and our country, but we do matter to the people around us. We do matter to the friends and family that we have, to the people that we might not really care about.

And that I think is something that we should keep in mind when we are thinking about our existence.

A Complex Equation for Success

The effort that you put in might not pay off.

But I think that it is worth a try.

We wouldn’t know how far will go if we never put in the work in the first place.

So, instead of dwelling on our failures,

we should pick ourselves up,


and move on, not making the same mistakes again.

It is hard to accept failure after all the effort that you’ve put in. But then we have to remember that this is life and it will never be the way we envisioned it.

I failed in something and I am hard on myself if I ever do. Therefore, this is a reminder for myself. A reminder that I should grab the rope of success and pick myself up. This failure is just a momentary setback, a reminder that hard work is just a part of a more complex equation to success, though, a big part of it.


A Different Set of Clockwork

We are all genetically different, each of us having our own set of clockwork that runs us.

All of us have our own strengths and weaknesses and it is up to us to discover what they are.

Once we are able to come to terms with them, to understand what they are and why they are, we’ll be self-aware enough to build up from there.

Many of us are not aware of our own strengths and weaknesses thus, making it hard to know what we need to nurture.

One thing is for certain, to achieve what we truly want, we need to work on our strengths. We need to nurture our strengths to reach new heights because that is what we are innately good at, our talent.

No matter how hard we work on our weaknesses, it’ll never reach the level of the Greats because we lack a key ingredient, talent.

I have always been an advocate of finding, discovering and understanding oneself. Today is not any different. Therefore, I urge all of you to take the time to think, ponder and evaluate yourself. Understand your strengths and weaknesses.

Be self-aware.

Again, I’m in that mood.

I’m in one of those moods again.

The mood where I’m feeling half hopeless and half exhausted with life.

I don’t know why though but from time to time I would enter such moods and it will completely ruin my day.

I feel very unmotivated and just mentally exhausted. So, when I went to the gym just now, I didn’t do anything productive and everything felt really heavy.

However, it is also in these moods that I would reflect on life and look at how far (or not) I’ve come.

Reflecting back to the past few days, I felt that I haven’t been practising much humility. I felt that I was too obnoxious or too egoistical. Maybe people don’t notice it but I honestly felt like I was. I felt like I was showing off too much and complimenting myself and putting down others. Honestly, I feel bad now.

I’m trying so hard to be humble, to bring myself to a lower level but sometimes, I just feel expressive and I need to put myself out there.

I still have to work on this humility thing.

May Allah help me in my efforts.


Chasing an Education

Jobs are harder to find,

Degrees are rapidly decreasing in value,

Graduates struggle to make ends meet.

So, is there any purpose in pursuing an education?

Well, I believe that it truly depends.

In my case, I pursue an education because I am fascinated in the subject. I am curious about learning the inner workings of Biology and reaching a level whereby I am able to truly understand the complexities of Life.

I did not enrol into a university so that I can get a job in the future but because of the deep interest I have in the subject and I think that that should be the reason why we pursue an education.

At the end of the day, I believe that our intention matters because ultimately, you have to weigh the pros and the cons of getting an education. Is it worth it to spend thousands of dollars on an education that does not promise you a stable career after or would you rather spend that money to build something for yourself?

Sometimes, we make a decision to enter university because it seemed to be the right path to take but have we ever pondered if it is truly beneficial for us in the first place?

Stop letting that herd mentality affect you but find and truly understand the reason you’re chasing an education.

Degrees aren’t everything.