Time Alone?

I need a few days to myself.

I have to admit that the holidays was fun.

Met some friends, did some work, improved my craft, did more work…

However, I lacked something that I truly needed, my own time.

Almost every single day during the holidays was I interacting with someone, talking to someone, being in the company of someone. Sometimes, it becomes tiring, exhausting even.

I guess it is because I’m slightly introverted and I just need time to think, ponder and reflect.

There are about 3 days left before the start of the new semester and I’m going to take whatever time that is left, alone. I really need to think.

And I truly hope that I’m re-energised and more focused for the upcoming semester, a semester that I feel, wouldn’t be easy.



Ponder the Nature of Our Existence

Let’s ponder about our purpose on this planet.

Let’s ponder the meaning of life.

Let’s ponder the nature of our existence.

Why are we here?

Do we serve a higher purpose?

Are we here just to exist and die off?

How about the atheistic idea of propagating future generations?

I’m sure all of us have pondered about it,

The meaning of our own existence.

But most of the time,

We pushed the thought away,

“Too complicated, too pointless,” we say.

But maybe,

Just maybe,

There is a meaning to all of these seeming randomness,

Be it God,

Or some other idea.

But keep in mind,

For something,

Can never come out of nothing.




Reflecting On Yourself

One of my most favourite activity is to sit and ponder, not really meditation but just to put everything aside, sit down and reflect on everything that has happened in my life. It is especially uplifting and soothing when I do it right after my afternoon shower, to have only the whirring of the fan and the quiet of the evening to accompany me. Whenever I sit down and think, there are always a few things that I would reflect on. They are my accomplishments, my future and my life. I will think about the tasks that I have completed and whether they played a part in achieving any one of my goals. With regards to my future, I will think about how far will I go if I stayed on my current path and I can say that it has helped me to stay focused. I will also think about my life as a whole whether I have hurt anyone, whether I had done the right thing and whether the decisions that I have made were the best ones. By reflecting, it helps me to re-evaluate myself and through the mistakes or failures, I learn.

To have the time to sit down and think is a luxury especially in our current era full of distractions. Therefore, I really do cherish and appreciate the time I have to think.

In all the time I had spent reflecting. I have learnt a lot about myself. I was also able to get some closure on the mistakes I had done in the past and accept and learn from them.

It might not be easy to just start thinking and pondering the first time but I promise you that the more you do it, the easier it will be. You will start to understand how important it is to have time for yourself to just reflect and once the benefits come, you will not take it for granted.